But then there’s that funny feeling, one hard to describe, I guess it’s like the feeling you have after a heavy work out; you’re drained. You’re glad it’s over but there’s almost an emptiness, a, “huh, it’s all done.” I guess it’s an adrenaline dump. I wouldn’t call it sadness, just a weird feeling of exhaustion and an empty head.
The book was the last thing I had to do to put all of my relationship and move turmoil behind me, and the day it went up I was overjoyed. I had one of the best days I’ve had since moving to Seattle. I woke up happy, but by the evening my head was empty, there was a silence and the thought that it was finally over.
I guess the emptiness comes with the removal of something, good or bad. Something we’ve focused on is now gone.
Granted I’m not asking for any of the negative feelings or the continuation of it to return, I guess I’m just a little surprised.
A new day has dawned, and the only thing I have to worry about now is me, and progressing towards my future, ensuring it’s positive mental, physical and spiritual side. To not get distracted and stay on the path.
It’s nice to not have any distractions sure, I guess there’s a loneliness that comes with solitary life, but that is filled by the constant pursuit of one’s goals.
And for those of you who have read me before, you know I don’t mess around.
While some may run out and find a new partner, I know it’s best to remain solo and guarded. I have much to do and a new and enlightened focus.
The weight is gone, it’s finally over and now I can revel in what it feels like to be just me and be making positive changes and heading in the right direction.
Relief is a tricky thing and carries with it many emotions. I’m just glad my work is out there and I’ll take the feelings as they come. I’m finally finding happiness in myself and realizing I’m not so much the, “bad guy,” I had previously thought...
Deep breath and here we go.
For further reading:
Hi, Have You Met Me? on Amazon/Kindle http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00B009W1M
and
There's No Good Campfires Left In Hell on Amazon/Kindle http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00H7CZ590
Or Paperback at http://www.lulu.com/shop/kate-monahan/theres-no-good-campfires-left-in-hell/paperback/product-21276242.html