When I got clean and got through detox; all I did was over-sleep for about a year. 12+ hours a day. And I’m not exaggerating. I just wanted to sleep. It felt good.
I had no problem falling asleep and I couldn’t get up to save my life. Almost like my system would naturally drug itself every night.
And I can remember when it stopped about four months ago. The first night I couldn’t sleep.
Because I freaked the fuck out.
Back when I was using I would go days without sleep. That comes with the territory. I used to have horrendous insomnia even on the days when I didn’t use due to my fucked up sleep schedule and all the residual shit in my system.
So not being able to sleep just triggered an emotional upheaval for me. I was used to sleeping and I thought my sleepless nights were over.
But! Upon closer inspection; most of my sober friends didn’t sleep for shit either. Almost all complaining of the inability to sleep. Granted almost all of them are creative and I’m guessing that has something to do with it.
Since I started getting busy with my art and work, since life has gotten rad; sleep has gotten scarce. My brain has been on overdrive.
I either can’t get to sleep or I can’t stay asleep.
I don’t look like shit and I feel fine, so I guess my 5 hour choppy average is alright. As long as it’s after 5am I’m usually good to go until 11 or so.
Unless I’m in the middle of a project or have something big going on the next day. Then forget it, all bets are off.
Which I’ve been like since I was a kid, so I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. But when you kill off any semblance of normal feelings and functions for 13 years, these revelations don’t come easy.
My rationale for my not sleeping also seems to be the common gripe among the sober and the creative.
Positive projects; life being busy and rad seems to equal, “fuck sleep”.
And I can deal with that. At least it’s for a greater good. Who wants to oversleep anyway?
Because I’m pretty sure that’s all that death is?
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I had no problem falling asleep and I couldn’t get up to save my life. Almost like my system would naturally drug itself every night.
And I can remember when it stopped about four months ago. The first night I couldn’t sleep.
Because I freaked the fuck out.
Back when I was using I would go days without sleep. That comes with the territory. I used to have horrendous insomnia even on the days when I didn’t use due to my fucked up sleep schedule and all the residual shit in my system.
So not being able to sleep just triggered an emotional upheaval for me. I was used to sleeping and I thought my sleepless nights were over.
But! Upon closer inspection; most of my sober friends didn’t sleep for shit either. Almost all complaining of the inability to sleep. Granted almost all of them are creative and I’m guessing that has something to do with it.
Since I started getting busy with my art and work, since life has gotten rad; sleep has gotten scarce. My brain has been on overdrive.
I either can’t get to sleep or I can’t stay asleep.
I don’t look like shit and I feel fine, so I guess my 5 hour choppy average is alright. As long as it’s after 5am I’m usually good to go until 11 or so.
Unless I’m in the middle of a project or have something big going on the next day. Then forget it, all bets are off.
Which I’ve been like since I was a kid, so I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. But when you kill off any semblance of normal feelings and functions for 13 years, these revelations don’t come easy.
My rationale for my not sleeping also seems to be the common gripe among the sober and the creative.
Positive projects; life being busy and rad seems to equal, “fuck sleep”.
And I can deal with that. At least it’s for a greater good. Who wants to oversleep anyway?
Because I’m pretty sure that’s all that death is?
Buy Hi, Have You Met Me? on Amazon today! http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00B009W1M
Check out the blog on it's home site @
www.hihaveyoumetme.com for previous writings and more.
Don’t forget to stalk me further at https://twitter.com/#!/hihaveyoumetme orhttp://www.facebook.com/authorkatemonahan