“Muzzle”
Smashing Pumpkins
I fear that I'm ordinary, just like everyone
To lie here and die among the sorrows
Adrift among the days
For everything I ever said
And everything I've ever done is gone and dead
As all things must surely have to end
And great loves will one day have to part
I know that I am meant for this world
My life has been extraordinary
Blessed and cursed and won
Time heals but I'm forever broken
By and by the way...
Have you ever heard the words
I'm singing in these songs?
It's for the girl I've loved all along
Can a taste of love be so wrong
As all things must surely have to end
And great loves will one day have to part
I know that I am meant for this world
And in my mind as I was floating
Far above the clouds
Some children laughed I'd fall for certain
For thinking that I'd last forever
But I knew exactly where I was
And I knew the meaning of it all
And I knew the distance to the sun
And I knew the echo that is love
And I knew the secrets in your spires
And I knew the emptiness of youth
And I knew the solitude of heart
And I knew the murmurs of the soul
And the world is drawn into your hands
And the world is etched upon your heart
And the world so hard to understand
Is the world you can't live without
And I knew the silence of the world
I posted this song a few years ago, thinking I had I it all figured out. When really, I didn’t know shit. It’s been my favorite since the album came out. I guess it was because at some point in my life I would truly understand.
I spent my life fighting the ordinary. I never knew “love” until the past year or so. I saw all of my hard times as curses and not blessings. I had no idea that having great things, love and the similar would one day end. I thought it would last forever once it was there. Silly thoughts and not realistic.
After my experience in coming out here, the tragedy of love, loss and silence, I knew exactly what this song was about. It gave me that final piece of mind. I never really believed I was meant for this world and with my new perspective I know that I am.
Everything that the above has been listed above by the songwriter I now fully know and have experienced. I have felt them all, understand them and am at peace with them. I can now embrace the world and what I have to do now. It’s pacifying and gratifying.
I no longer harbor the anger I carried for so long for my upside down life, my battles and loss of love. I understand the solitude of heart and the silence of the world. It was in that silence that I found my true self.
I figured out the secrets and lies, I learned how to overcome the pain and I can now see straight. Not worrying about doubting myself or listening to others doubts. As he says, I know, I knew, and can deal with the parting and the end of great things. And extraordinary - yes. Blessed and cursed and won. My past is dead and gone and I feel born anew, for the better. I have learned much in my transition, and through this I will fly full throttle into my new existence. I knew but I didn’t, and now I know.
Music has saved my ass and given me gratification and closure my whole life, I’d be lost without it. To be able to know all of the above and to have experienced it all is a divine gift. Hopefully, Dear Reader, someday, or can now understand and feel the same.
It gives one great peace.
Blessed Be.
For further reading:
Hi, Have You Met Me? on Amazon/Kindle http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00B009W1M
There's No Good Campfires Left In Hell on Amazon/Kindle http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00H7CZ590
For Paperback at http://www.lulu.com/shop/kate-monahan/theres-no-good-campfires-left-in-hell/paperback/product-21276242.html
Smashing Pumpkins
I fear that I'm ordinary, just like everyone
To lie here and die among the sorrows
Adrift among the days
For everything I ever said
And everything I've ever done is gone and dead
As all things must surely have to end
And great loves will one day have to part
I know that I am meant for this world
My life has been extraordinary
Blessed and cursed and won
Time heals but I'm forever broken
By and by the way...
Have you ever heard the words
I'm singing in these songs?
It's for the girl I've loved all along
Can a taste of love be so wrong
As all things must surely have to end
And great loves will one day have to part
I know that I am meant for this world
And in my mind as I was floating
Far above the clouds
Some children laughed I'd fall for certain
For thinking that I'd last forever
But I knew exactly where I was
And I knew the meaning of it all
And I knew the distance to the sun
And I knew the echo that is love
And I knew the secrets in your spires
And I knew the emptiness of youth
And I knew the solitude of heart
And I knew the murmurs of the soul
And the world is drawn into your hands
And the world is etched upon your heart
And the world so hard to understand
Is the world you can't live without
And I knew the silence of the world
I posted this song a few years ago, thinking I had I it all figured out. When really, I didn’t know shit. It’s been my favorite since the album came out. I guess it was because at some point in my life I would truly understand.
I spent my life fighting the ordinary. I never knew “love” until the past year or so. I saw all of my hard times as curses and not blessings. I had no idea that having great things, love and the similar would one day end. I thought it would last forever once it was there. Silly thoughts and not realistic.
After my experience in coming out here, the tragedy of love, loss and silence, I knew exactly what this song was about. It gave me that final piece of mind. I never really believed I was meant for this world and with my new perspective I know that I am.
Everything that the above has been listed above by the songwriter I now fully know and have experienced. I have felt them all, understand them and am at peace with them. I can now embrace the world and what I have to do now. It’s pacifying and gratifying.
I no longer harbor the anger I carried for so long for my upside down life, my battles and loss of love. I understand the solitude of heart and the silence of the world. It was in that silence that I found my true self.
I figured out the secrets and lies, I learned how to overcome the pain and I can now see straight. Not worrying about doubting myself or listening to others doubts. As he says, I know, I knew, and can deal with the parting and the end of great things. And extraordinary - yes. Blessed and cursed and won. My past is dead and gone and I feel born anew, for the better. I have learned much in my transition, and through this I will fly full throttle into my new existence. I knew but I didn’t, and now I know.
Music has saved my ass and given me gratification and closure my whole life, I’d be lost without it. To be able to know all of the above and to have experienced it all is a divine gift. Hopefully, Dear Reader, someday, or can now understand and feel the same.
It gives one great peace.
Blessed Be.
For further reading:
Hi, Have You Met Me? on Amazon/Kindle http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00B009W1M
There's No Good Campfires Left In Hell on Amazon/Kindle http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00H7CZ590
For Paperback at http://www.lulu.com/shop/kate-monahan/theres-no-good-campfires-left-in-hell/paperback/product-21276242.html