Well, today marks 20 months clean.
20 Fucking Months.
That’s the longest this Nomadic Bitch has ever done anything consecutively.
Relationships, jobs, what have you. I’ve always had multiple jobs, all freelance and if they weren’t, I was slinging drinks in some shit-hole, but never for longer than six months or so.
And relationships, please. I think my longest was 18-19 months? And that wasn’t even consecutive. One; I was still seeing my ex off and on and the second was the break up and get back together kind. And in that one I was dating my college professor towards the end…
Commitment is not my strong suit and I’ve always been more of a serial monogamist. Lots of shit back to back. Never dating lots of people at one time. I’m far too self-involved for that. I’d just let myself float onto something new when I got bored with the later.
But those long stretches were almost 7 years ago. I guess I got worse with age. Having 3-4 month long runs of monogamy or 5-6 month stretches of seeing someone, uncommitted. Then just nothing at all.
I can’t commit to shit. I get weirded out by rules and being told I’m stuck with somebody, one person; forever. I can’t wrap my brain around it.
Everything has to be loose with me.
Unless it’s something I feel passionate about. Like becoming a wellness practitioner. That I’ll commit to until I’m six feet under. That’s my calling.
And keeping clean. I have no other choice. That or death. Because if I’m using, I’m already dead.
And living in New York. This is the longest I’ve stayed anywhere. And I feel home. I can stay here.
So 20 months of anything for me is an accomplishment.
Especially when it comes to sobriety.
I found my niche. To be a sober, healthy, positive, wellness practitioner here in the City.
As far as relationships go…maybe I just haven’t found someone I was passionate about yet. Someone to break my spell of not giving a shit and not being able settle.
Only time will tell.
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20 Fucking Months.
That’s the longest this Nomadic Bitch has ever done anything consecutively.
Relationships, jobs, what have you. I’ve always had multiple jobs, all freelance and if they weren’t, I was slinging drinks in some shit-hole, but never for longer than six months or so.
And relationships, please. I think my longest was 18-19 months? And that wasn’t even consecutive. One; I was still seeing my ex off and on and the second was the break up and get back together kind. And in that one I was dating my college professor towards the end…
Commitment is not my strong suit and I’ve always been more of a serial monogamist. Lots of shit back to back. Never dating lots of people at one time. I’m far too self-involved for that. I’d just let myself float onto something new when I got bored with the later.
But those long stretches were almost 7 years ago. I guess I got worse with age. Having 3-4 month long runs of monogamy or 5-6 month stretches of seeing someone, uncommitted. Then just nothing at all.
I can’t commit to shit. I get weirded out by rules and being told I’m stuck with somebody, one person; forever. I can’t wrap my brain around it.
Everything has to be loose with me.
Unless it’s something I feel passionate about. Like becoming a wellness practitioner. That I’ll commit to until I’m six feet under. That’s my calling.
And keeping clean. I have no other choice. That or death. Because if I’m using, I’m already dead.
And living in New York. This is the longest I’ve stayed anywhere. And I feel home. I can stay here.
So 20 months of anything for me is an accomplishment.
Especially when it comes to sobriety.
I found my niche. To be a sober, healthy, positive, wellness practitioner here in the City.
As far as relationships go…maybe I just haven’t found someone I was passionate about yet. Someone to break my spell of not giving a shit and not being able settle.
Only time will tell.
Buy Hi, Have You Met Me? on Amazon today! http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00B009W1M
Check out my website www.kateemonahan.com for more information on books, blog archive and contact info.
Don’t forget to stalk me further at https://twitter.com/#!/hihaveyoumetme orhttp://www.facebook.com/authorkatemonahan